The Lost Girl and Me

The sun was shining on Sunday and the sky was blue as Simon, the doggos and I headed up to the Airlie Monument.  Although it is February there was a warmth in the air and as the steep part ended, it really was like being on top of the world. An uninhibited view across Glen Prosen and Glen Clova. Happy humans and happy dogs.

When we reached the monument,  an unexpected thing happened. We came across a girl standing on her own. We said hello, smiled and walked around to the other side. Perfect photo opportunity.

Moments later she came round to us. "Can you help me?"  she asked. Tears in her eyes.

"Are you lost?"  Simon asked.

She had been waiting on her parents. Time had passed and now feeling alone and obviously scared she wished she had gone with them.

"Would you like a hug?" I said reaching for the softmints in my pocket.

She stepped forward and we embraced. She sobbed and held on and I held her too. This was a very special hug. It was a holding, powerful, loving moment. There was no sharp exit. No rush to get away. Time passed. Clouds moved. Birds chirped and we held each other tightly.

The moment of release resulted in a different girl in front of us. Calmer and able to express more about what was happening.

So, we changed our path and walked back the way we had came.  Realising we had passed the group that included her friends and parents. She walked with us, talking about dog's names and ice cream.

Ten minutes later the group were reunited and we carried on our way. Something was staying with me. I have been seeking to understand the power of this experience for me.

The first opportunity to make sense, was with 2 other coaches, I connect with monthly.  I told the story and felt the energy and realised in that moment, something was lingering. Or perhaps unseen in some way.

Monday afternoon,  I had my weekly counselling session and it came up again.

Why?  

Let me share my inner-sights. These are the things I have discovered.

1) I was not without judgement for her being on her own and I have no idea of the circumstances.

2) Owning my stuff. I was relating to her loneliness and fear. The Lost Girl in me. The Abandoned girl in me. Knew at some deep, unconscious level what this felt like.

3) That hug was an adult holding a child. That is what you would have seen. It was also my lost, abandoned child holding another lost child with powerful understanding. There was a mutual resonance. 

4) Healing never stops. Simon and I helped her. She has also helped me connect to an aspect of my inner work and inner healing. The Lost Girl's together.

I once had an idea for a workshop called "Heal the Hole with Wholeness". I don't always know where my holes and needs are. I am constantly and gently working through my life spiral. I revisit and reconnect with the "holes" that require some more attention.

I found one on Sunday,  whilst being on top of the world.

Some Experiments and Reflections for You:-

1)  Have you ever connected to your lost or abandoned inner child?

2)  Have you ever considered that there are parts of you that have been lost along the way?

3) If you were to walk backwards along your lifeline, where would you find echoes of yourself?

4)  How old are you in the moments of lost and abandoned?

5)  Are you willing to go and collect yourself?

6)  Would you like my support, understanding and ability to be alongside you on this inner-quest?

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